The Ups and Downs of Life

So many of you reading this may think I write some personal things on here but it's because I use this as more of a journal than just a blog to keep friends and family updated on my life. The last few months have been somewhat trying. My life is not exactly where I thought it would end up. When I was young I always thought I would just grow up, go to college, and then get married. I never thought about what would happen after that. Well I grew up, went to college, almost finished with college, but still not married. My plan of 22 years is now not working out. Not that I'm necessarily complaining but like I said, not what I planned on. I've been really frustrated with trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do with my life now. Where do I go from here. Where is my "Mr. Right"? Now you may be thinking that since I've bought it up that I've had some divine inspiration on what to do and where he is, but unfortunately I still have yet to get that. But I have really tried to focus on me lately. Instead of being upset that life isn't going how I think I want it to I have tried to make the most of it and try to find the reasons why Heavenly Father has kept me here and in my present situation. Now it's still not always easy but has definitely been easier than being sad and stressed all the time. I have decided to just go on with my life and see where it leads me. I have started applying for jobs in lots of different areas; Lake Havasu Arizona, Rock Springs Wyoming, Las Vegas Nevada, and a few in the Salt Lake area. I also hope that once more openings are posed I will be able to apply for the Cedar City/St. George areas. I still have no idea where I really want to go but I am so excited to see where I end up. I don't know why I felt to write all this down but like I said this is more a journal for me than just a blog. Student teaching is still going great. I am in Kindergarten class that has 23 students in the morning and 18 in the afternoon. . . 33 total (some are all day kids). They are definitely a handful but always make me laugh! I'm really loving it and I'm so excited to have my own classroom hopefully soon! Also an update on the male situation. . . the cute cowboy I mentioned a month or so ago didn't really work out, but isn't there a saying that says something like when a door closes a window opens, or something like that. Morgan set me up on a blind date with a co-worker, and since it was even in the planning stages she insisted that we are perfect for each other and the only real problem is whose side she will sit on at our wedding. We set up a triple blind date and it went great! He is a awesome guy, so funny and genuine. We have gone out a few times since then and have some fun things planned for the long weekend so we will see how they turn out. I can only hope for the best!

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Well January was my birthday month and as expected it was basically the same as all the others. No big party but I did have my blind date with that cowboy. I think it went well but I'll be surprised if I get a second one. On the plus side, Mom left my number for our cute waiter at Chili's but I still haven't heard from him so we'll see about that one. . . My friend also left my number with another cute waiter at Red Robin in St. George but no news from him either, but it is what it is. I did go to California with my Mom and Natalie to visit some family. It was a long drive for a weekend but lots of fun and definitely worth it. We found out lots of information for genealogy work will keep us busy for a while. Those were basically the highlights of the last few weeks.

Student teaching is going great. My TWS. . . well it's coming along I guess, slowly. This week I finished my first placement which was in special ed. I'm happy to be done but I miss all the kids I worked with and I was actually pretty sad on my last day working with all of them. But now I'm in a Kindergarten room with 23 students in the morning and 18 in the afternoon. What a handful! They are very busy and hard to keep track of. I'll admit I was pretty worried to start from previous bad experiences in Kindergarten classes but I have been pleasantly surprised. There are still times when I feel like I'm going crazy but overall it's gone well. My first day I mostly observed and helped keep the kids still and quite but on the second day I was put to work. I took over "opening" on the rug, which is when we recite the ABC's, practice writing sentances, counting to 20, calendar, etc. Then in the afternoon my mentor teacher had to go to a meeting at the district office so I had to take over. She was planning on only being gone about an hour but I got the schedule for the whole day just in case. Thankfully I got it because she didn't get back until 10 min. before school got out so I was solo all afternoon. I think it went well and we didn't have any major problems but I wasn't expecting to take over for the whole class my 2nd day. They kids are so cute and do the funniest things it's hard to not laugh all the time. I'm excited to see how the rest of my time in the room will go.